hah, wow.
I finally remembered my password for this blog.
I haven't been on here for ages - Tumblr sorta became my new blogging platform, even though none of the stuff I post on there is personal.
Creating a youtube channel in a second - going to start a beauty/vlog channel.
Hopefully all works out well.

Nails

I painted my nails the other day. They were inspired by space. I liked them a lot.
I did it by
Applying a black base coat - only one.
Then I kinda swish-swashed over the top of that with the Rimmel I ♥ Lasting Finish in Azure, and some purple colour I found. I didnt really apply a full coat, I just randomly brushed it on in various places of my nails.
I then applied a coat of some iridescent green/purple/blue polish which is my mums, and finished it off with a top coat of BYS glitter polish.
Phew.
They kinda looked navy once all those layers had been put on, it looked really cool.
They lasted a while as well, a good week before they started to chip.
I apologise for not being able to tell you the exact brands I used, and the lack of detail in the description. Ha, this probably isn't very useful at all, but I wanted to show you my nails so eh.

Well hi there.
I haven't been taking photos lately as I am currently sitting exams at school. Man I love year 11.
I feel as though, I don't know, I take too many photos of myself? But the thing is, I like taking photos of myself. Self absorbed? possibly. No, not really. I take photos of myself when I'm in a certain mood. I don't take photos of myself for the sake of taking photos of myself, to upload them and receive comments.
I take photos of myself when I'm feeling something - most of the time.
Whether its happy, sad, lonely, angry, creative. I'll take a photo to document it.
This photo, was the morning after my friends party.
Before that night, I hadn't really felt happy, I was kinda pissed off with everything that was going on in my life, I was stressed, and just generally in a horrible state of mind.
But, the night of the party, was when I genuinely felt happy. I was surrounded by a group of people who I felt really comfortable with, and had a great time.
The morning after I realised that I really have nothing to be unhappy about. I have amazing friends, and the situation I have been placed in with Mum is not so bad.
So I took this photo.There are people out there with bigger problems than me. She will get better, it just takes time. She's actually going in for another operation tomorrow, so I'll be thinking of her ♥
  I guess this photo reminds me of all the things that have been going on lately. It makes me stronger.

Tumblr.

I gave in and made a Tumblr.
My link Tumblr

I haven't been creating lately D:
BUT I'm going to get some photos up this weekend, and I'm rather excited about these ones.
I also managed to get models for some shots I've had planned for ages. So, expect some new photos. :)

Hospital.

My mother is in hospital. She has a broken ankle. :(
She's going to be in hospital for a couple of weeks, she had the accident 2 weeks ago, and her condition is only getting worse. I want my mum to come home. My family and I are no longer going to America either.





I cry myself to sleep.
I may look happy, but I'm actually hurting.
I pretend everything is okay, when really I'm on a rollercoaster of emotions.
I crash.
I burn.
I bottle these things inside of me until I can no longer contain them.
I explode.
I need someone to help me put myself back together again.
But no-one is listening.
I need someone to talk to.
I need someone to hear my cries for help.



I sink back into sadness and insecurity.

Justin Bieber is amazing.

Today was not a good day. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new school term. Wahoo! :|
I have barely written my speech.... so gonna fail that one.
So instead of doing my speech I went and took photos. Cos I'm a photowhore.
I went and saw Never Say Never yesterday. BEST.MOVIE.EVER. It was in 3D, and there was a part where he flipped his hair. IN SLOW MOTION. I used to HATE Justin Bieber, but this movie transformed me into a 'belieber' I love him. He's so adorable, and his talent it amazing - to be able to do the things he does, is just incredible.

 I respect him so much.
I think I'm going to go see it again this Saturday. I'm super duper excited.